The Summer

As the number of days grows short to the end of the semester and the upcomming days of summer fast approach, I have come to realize that farewells to new friends and a reunions with old friends are immenent. Its a wierd feeling, really. I am sure you all have felt it at one point. Its a feeling of dread, yet happiness at the same time. No, not dread for the farewell or happiness for the reunion. No, that is expected. This feeling is caused from the opposite. Your almost happy to leave your new friends for a while. Its not I don't like my new friends, but I am anxious for the summer. But the dread. I dread what the summer will be like. I can't help but think that it will be a sad, depressing, and lonely summer. But I also dread what will happen with the reunion. Will old friendships carry on like nothing has happenedD? Will old feuds rekindle? Will old grudges still be in place? But most of all, how have people changed?

I sure as hell have changed. I don't want to brag at all, but I am proud of myself. I have changed for the better, though some judge it as for the worse. Yeah, I will probably piss people off here and there. But you know why? Though in high school, I as loud and obnoxious and probably made alot of enemies because they didn't like how I acted, I did keep alot of things bottled up inside. I had things I wanted to tell people, people I wanted to tell off, questions I wanted to ask, and one person I wanted to please.

Before you all go and think that I go out of my way to please people, I don't. That one person was myself. I made sacrifices so I wouldn't be crucified for my beleifs and words later on.

But all of those words I wanted to say are lost. I disposed of them. I forgot my old feuds and my old grudges. I don't care what I wanted to say to the people in high school anymore. These don't matter anymore. College changes people, myself included, as I stated earlier. The people we all said goodbye to last August are no more. They have changed. They are now new people. They carry the same identity. We may not notice the changes, but they are there.

I don't believe that we are the same person forever. Events in or lives change us constantly. Sure, we are the same person physically, but mentally we constantly evolve.

My group of friends and I will reunite very soon. I am almost scared. I already imagine what it will be like and I just feel an overwhelming feeling that I am in over my head. So much stuff, so little time.

Ray. Josh. Jeff. David. Lindsey. Bradley. Bobby. Eric.

We will reuinte on a weekend sometime. We may all have different things to do this summer and jobs will get in the way. We each have our own goals to go after, and I wish us the best of luck. But please, I ask, do not forget what we started. The actually mission we accomplish is nothing for D&D is menial and nothing. The bond of friendshipe we had though. Let us not let that die.

I will message each of you and see when you will all be available for a meeting for us to get back together.