This is My Story

This is my story. I want it to be a good one. I'd love to share it with as many people as possible, but then again, I could give a damn' if anyone read it. I just recently read an essay for my College Writing II class about Blogging, and I realized I haven't really kept up with my blog like I intended to. Well, that's about to change. I am going to, well, at least try, to keep this blog up again. I will try to post every day, but only time will tell how that goes.

Onward to the next matter of business. I had my first FNM last week. For those who are uneducated in the art of Magic: The Gathering, FNM means Friday Night Magic. Its a tournament that is held every Friday. I wish I could say it went well, but then I'd be lying. To save the sanity of those who don't care about my Magic life, I will post the results in my MtG blog.

Next order of buisness. School. I am tired of it. I cannot wait until summer. Sure, I have fun with my friends up here, but lets face it, ot was hard enough my senior year to get out of bed to go to class, but my mom forced me. Now its even harder because no one is there to force me. I do my best in classes, but one class in particular isn't so hot right now. I won't discuss it, as I would rather not hear and bickering and lectures from others. More on this rant later.

Got my first car last weekend. Its a 1994 Buick LeSabre. I think anyways. I am terrible with cars. All I know is its mine. It was funny though, my great uncle, who just died two weeks ago owned this care before me. He was really religious and had alot of religious emblems in the car. My friend, Josh, got in the car and was like "Woah! Its Jesus!" and said "Even the pope would be like 'Hey, lets leave work at work." I laughed. It was funny.

But I think I'll leave out the rest of my geek talk in favor of something a bit more important. Recently, I heard some news. For the sake of confidentiality, I will try to be very vague on the subject. But as it turns out, a friend of mine called me a loser because I come home on weekends. The other friend rebutted saying that it could be because I don't have any friends at SRU. Both of these are full of lies and it simply annoys me that my old high school friends have so much confidence in me. It also pains me that they are critizing something they have no right to criticize. For their information,I do have good friends up here. I may not have made alot of friends, but the ones I have are damn' good friends. And for thier information, a few of these friends are from Ohio, near Columbus, and even they go home each weekend. Its over a 2 hour drive. So, if my friends all go home on weekends, how am I the loser for for doing the same. Its better than me sitting around here doing absolutly nothing. So, if this applies to you, know this. You are my friends, but I would really appreciate if you would make comments when you are informed on the situation. I do not tolerate ignorance.

Speaking of me not tolerating ignorance, I would like to make an announcement. The old John is no more. A new John has been forged. Arrogant? Probably, but I prefer Confident. Asshole? Most likely, but I intend to tell it as it is. It is not my problem that the truth hurts. Proud? Its time I take Pride in my actions and stop being the one who blends into the background. Independent? Yes. I am out for myself now.

This looks like I have grown bitter, but in reality, I have not. In fact, I have more fun now, mainly because I worry about myself and don't wait for the apporoval of others before I do anything anymore. I follow my own drum. I no longer take things as they come, I now am ready to make the waves, if you will. I am the one who is going to be taking charge and will no longer tolerate excuses. Its time the world toughens me up, and I feel that I am prepared for it. Friends are nice, but in the end, the only person I know I can count on is myself. This is not meant to sound rude, but it is the truth. Think about it. Even if you think there is someone you can trust, thing happen. They could turn on you. They may not be available for help. They may not be able to help you. When the dust settles, I know that only I can be there for myself all the time.

Also, I have been admitting defeat, misunderstanding and the like more. This Modesty is not somehting that can be taken advantage of. I now know that if I do not know something, it is impossible for me to act like I know what I am talking about. Simply by admitting that I do not know something, I save myself embarassment later on. Its something simple that i learned from my Political Theory professor, Dr. Martin. He says "I'd rather be an idiot than a fool." Take it or leave it.

And finally, I would like to end by saying that this new John will be the same as the old John for the most part. But if I am pushed far enough, the new John will rear his ugly head.